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Self Loathing in Hogwarts - Boulevard of Broken Dreams
We all walk alone
Self Loathing in Hogwarts
Who: Hannah, Harry, and Zach
What: Self Loathing in Hogwarts
Where: Hogwarts
When: A day or two after drinks at the Three Broomsticks

Harry snuck through the halls trying not to make any noise as he moved through the silent corridors. He was aching all over. He’d gone too far, again. He was lucky that the Host was looking out for him otherwise he’d be in worse shape than he already was. He knew better than to get into a situation where he couldn’t give a safe word or mutter an unbinding spell.

Voices coming from further down the corridor made him hurry every excruciating step. He had to get into his rooms before he was seen. He highly doubted that anyone with in the confines of the castle would understand this side of him; the side that donned black leather, ebony silk and kohl eyeliner, the side of Hero, Harry Potter that relished the feel of rough hands on his body, nails and teeth biting into his skin bringing him over and over to the edge of pleasure and pain. No, Hogwarts would be shocked at the depths of his deviancy.

As he turned the corner, just a few feet from his rooms, he could see the shadows of the other night owls lengthening in the dim light. He rushed the short distance across the stone floors and fell heavily against his door as the damage of his night’s activities flared with renewed fire once again.

He whispered his password in one pain filled breath and let the door fall open as he swung his body limply inside. The door shut heavily under his weight and his legs finally gave way underneath him. He slumped against the door breathing heavily from the effort of his flight. It was some time before he could summon the strength to fish his wand from his pocket and accio a vial of healing draught to where he lifelessly sat against the door.

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From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 1st, 2006 01:15 am (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah was with Zach viewing his quarters when she heard rushed footsteps. She paused in the middle of her sentence and cocked her head, listening. "Did you hear that?"

She went to the door and poked her head into the hallway just in time to hear the heavy thump of a door as it closed. Looking over her shoulder, she asked Zach, "That..didn't sound right. Do you know who that might be?"
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 1st, 2006 01:31 am (UTC) (Tags)
Zach frowned and picked up Lance, scrathing behing the ferret's ears. "No, it didn't. The only other staff that I know of that has moved in is Harry..."
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 1st, 2006 01:43 am (UTC) (Tags)
"Weird." She turned around, and went over to Zach, wrapping her arms around him in a hug. "Well, I'm going to go ahead and go- I'll owl you tomorrow, okay? I'll let you know how my meeting with Draco goes."

Hannah leaned up to kiss him on the cheek before picking up her purse and slinging it over her shoulder. She left him to do his packing or whatever it was he had said he was going to do, and shut the door behind her.

As she walked down the corridor, she heard the thump of something against one of the doors.

"..Hello?" she called, knocking on the door. "Who's there?"
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 1st, 2006 01:48 am (UTC) (Tags)
The knocking felt like boulders banging together inside of his head. The toll of pain and the effort of keeping his glamour in place draining him of his strength. He moaned softly and tried to move away from the pounding of the door.

Harry didn't get very far before he collapsed to the floor with a cry when every muscle in his body lit with fire and refused to follow the command of his conscious mind any more.
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 1st, 2006 01:55 am (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah pulled open the door as she heard the low moan and another thump on the floor. Her eyes widened in surprise and she almost couldn't believe the sight before her.

"Harry? Oh my gods, are you okay?" She rushed over to his side and kneeled beside him.
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 1st, 2006 02:00 am (UTC) (Tags)
"Peachy," Harry replied wanly as another ripple of fire swam through his veins. "Healing draught. Bathroom. Cupbord."
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 1st, 2006 02:09 am (UTC) (Tags)
"..Right." Hannah jumped to her feet and ran into the bathroom. She found the vial and brought it back, seating herself on the floor near his body. Opening the vial, she held it out to Harry.

"Ca-can you do it yourself?" She began nibbling on her lower lip. "Oh, Harry, what have you done to yourself?" The last question was muttered, asked more to herself than to Harry.
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 1st, 2006 09:22 pm (UTC) (Tags)
"Are you sure?" Hannah asked, getting to her feet and moving to sit next to Harry on the bed. In her panic, she had forgotten about using magic to do anything- she had spent so long without it. She placed a hand on his arm. "No offense or anything, but you look like shite."
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:03 am (UTC) (Tags)
"I don't doubt it," he said tiredly as he rubbed his hands over his face, smearing the dark eye makeup over his skin. "I need to wash this stuff off."
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:32 am (UTC) (Tags)
Zach went into the bathroom and ran a washcloth under warm water, soaping it, another that was just wet, to rinse and a dry towel.

He came back and sat down on the bed next to Harry. "Would you let me do it? I promise I'll be gentle."
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:36 am (UTC) (Tags)
"It's fine, it's not my face that hurts," Harry replied with a wan smile.
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:43 am (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah raised an eyebrow in response. "What hurts?"
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:51 am (UTC) (Tags)
Harry unbuttoned his shirt and shrugged the black silk off his shoulders with a wince. His torso was covered, back to front, with welts upon bites upon bruises. THe marks didn't stop at the waist of his pants but continued further down his body.

"I got mixed up with a sadist. The host stepped in when she pulled out a scalpel," Harry saidsoftly. "It could have been worse."
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 2nd, 2006 10:54 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Zach's green eyes widened as Harry's words hit home. He couldn't even say anything, just stood there, staring, as he tried to make himself undertand what Harry was telling him.
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 2nd, 2006 11:22 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Harry pulled Zach back to the bed. He pushed Zach backwards lightly before straddling his hips and kneeling in the bed. The leather of his pants creaked softly as he wrapped his fist in Zach's shirt and pulled him up. He swiped his tongue over Zach's closed lips.

"Please don't leave," Harry whispered against Zach's mouth. "I'll beg if I have to."

Harry pushed himself off the bed and onto his knees on the floor. He nuzzed his cheek against zach's legs raising slightly to rest his head on Zach's knees. Harry placed a kiss on the inside of Zach's thigh before looking up through his fringe.

"Please Zach," he breathed,"stay."
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 2nd, 2006 11:23 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah's knees nearly gave out and she landed rather ungracefully back on the bed. She looked at Zach, unsure of whether this really was a good idea or not. It had been so long for her, and she knew she could trust the two men beside her, but something still held her back.
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 2nd, 2006 11:33 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Zach's eyes had drifted closed as he fell back on the bed. It would be so easy for him to do this, to get lost in whatever Hannah and Harry would create. He desperately wished for a sign to tell him what to do...

His eyes opened as he heard Harry beg him to stay, felt the other man's tongue tease his lips. He felt his body start to betray him, his cock starting to push against his pants. The control he had carefully cultivated over the years began to slip a bit, a soft groan escaping his lips.

Zach looked at Hannah and then Harry, truly torn and not knowing what the bloody hell to do.
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 2nd, 2006 11:46 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Harry looked back and forth between them. The discomfort on their faces scared him. He'd gone too far. They thought he was a freak and now he'd be alone, again.

Harry sighed and stood up. Ignoring his protesting muscles Harry moved to the bathroom shedding his shirt completely on the way.

"I'd like you both to stay but i'll understand if you go," he said softly, "I just don't want to watch you walk out the door."
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 3rd, 2006 03:24 am (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah watched numbly as Harry stood and walked away. "Harry, wait-" She was on her feet, scrambling to catch him. Grabbing his wrist, she moved so that she was kissing him, her free hand tangling in his hair.
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 9th, 2006 02:29 am (UTC) (Tags)
Zach had been watching and enjoying the view when Harry and Hannah had turned their attention to him. His eyes drifted closed when he felt Harry's talented mouth on his skin. He could feel his body heat, feel the blood rushing to his cock. The feeling of Hannah cupping his balls as she licked his erection made him groan.

"Merlin, yes! So good... Want someone to suck my dick so damned bad..."
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 11th, 2006 12:54 am (UTC) (Tags)
Harry leaned in and licked his way from the base of Zack's cock to the tip. He sucked and nibbled as he tried to kiss and Hannah around the thick flesh of Zach's erection.
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 11th, 2006 01:03 am (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah winked as her tongue met Harry's around Zach's erection. Her hand came down to grip Harry's erection and she stroked it lightly.
freelance_wzrd From: freelance_wzrd Date: May 11th, 2006 01:47 am (UTC) (Tags)
Zach's eyes opened as he watched Hannah and Harry. Watching them combined with the feeling of their mouths on his cock was utter bliss. His hands threaded through their hair. "So sexy and perfect for each other..."
brave_at_heart From: brave_at_heart Date: May 15th, 2006 09:54 am (UTC) (Tags)
Harry's hand stroked upward over the rounded curve of Zach's arse. He teased his fingers into the cleft of his arse and stroked his fingers over Zach's tight, puckered hole. He pressed the pad of his thumb tight against him and timed the massaging pressure to the halting rhythm that he and Hannah established with their lips and tongues.
From: ghost_of_memory Date: May 15th, 2006 11:33 pm (UTC) (Tags)
Hannah grinned as she followed Harry's lead. She could tell Zach was close, and she scooted slightly closer to the other two.
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